I am not sure what this evolution of the site is going to be. I’ve been feeling the need to send my voice into the abyss that is the internet though, so check back later and maybe you’ll find something interesting – or maybe not – it will be a surprise.
- Another Month
Another picture of a puppy.
Everything is still feeling…grumpy…but this cutie makes me smile. 🙂
- Over It
Over what you may ask? Everything.
And I do mean everything.
Normally, despite my cynical opinions, I am (secretly?) optimistic about things but lately (noticeable in previous posts) I’m disappointed, grumpy and there is nothing hidden about it.
I’m feeling negative about everything from work to the future to life in general.
This isn’t a great feeling. I’m working just to survive, no excitement just work/sleep/repeat and that current scenario doesn’t seem worth it frankly.
I’m not saying I want my life to be like something you’d associate with a movie montage but maybe a percentage of that would be nice.
A whole lot less stress would be amazing too.
Though I am wondering if those things are possible without significant changes. Changes I would never have considered in the past but now are looking quite tempting.
It might be time to start travelling a whole new road since I seem to have reached a dead end on this current one.
- June 2023
Well June failed to step up and kick the year back onto a better path.
My hope that at this halfway point in the year life would feel more settled was dashed and it is the opposite, I’m feeling more stressed and unsettled than ever.
Things that I hoped would be resolved aren’t moving forward at all, and I would swear they have lost all forward momentum entirely.
I’m bored too, which isn’t helping, it’s like nothing is happening and I’m just stuck in a loop that I didn’t choose for myself.
I don’t care about anything.
And yet…I care that I don’t care, which essentially feels like caring about everything and that seems so much worse.
I have no idea how to change things, not without throwing my entire life into a blender, which while there is some appeal to that, I’ve worked really hard to get where I am, regardless if it isn’t feeling like where I’m supposed to be right now and don’t just want to blow up my life.
Cross your fingers, pray to your Gods/Fates/Universe of choice that the start of the second half of the year bring some reprieve. Who knows, it probably won’t help, but it sure would be nice…
