Well June failed to step up and kick the year back onto a better path.

My hope that at this halfway point in the year life would feel more settled was dashed and it is the opposite, I’m feeling more stressed and unsettled than ever.

Things that I hoped would be resolved aren’t moving forward at all, and I would swear they have lost all forward momentum entirely.

I’m bored too, which isn’t helping, it’s like nothing is happening and I’m just stuck in a loop that I didn’t choose for myself.

I don’t care about anything.

And yet…I care that I don’t care, which essentially feels like caring about everything and that seems so much worse.

I have no idea how to change things, not without throwing my entire life into a blender, which while there is some appeal to that, I’ve worked really hard to get where I am, regardless if it isn’t feeling like where I’m supposed to be right now and don’t just want to blow up my life.

Cross your fingers, pray to your Gods/Fates/Universe of choice that the start of the second half of the year bring some reprieve. Who knows, it probably won’t help, but it sure would be nice…