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November 2024
It has been a long month. I spent the first half trying to exit my old job, we went back and forth a bit with them trying to keep me on staff but in the end I just had to walk away. In the latter half, I was overwhelmed and exhausted by the new job.…
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Over It
Over what you may ask? Everything. And I do mean everything. Normally, despite my cynical opinions, I am (secretly?) optimistic about things but lately (noticeable in previous posts) I’m disappointed, grumpy and there is nothing hidden about it. I’m feeling negative about everything from work to the future to life in general. This isn’t a…
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June 2024
Well June failed to step up and kick the year back onto a better path. My hope that at this halfway point in the year life would feel more settled was dashed and it is the opposite, I’m feeling more stressed and unsettled than ever. Things that I hoped would be resolved aren’t moving forward…
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Attempts
I have tried to write a post this month on numerous occasions. I open the window, stare at the blank page, get distracted by something, try to refocus, stare some more at the screen but eventually abandon the effort closing the window. Is it because I don’t have anything to say? No. I could probably…
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Ugh
June was disappointing, well not the month itself but it encompassed a bunch of disappointing/irritating occurrences so yeah… The second half of 2023 kicks off tomorrow and I could use some more positive happenings for the next six months. I think the whole world could really. I’ve tuned my news feeds dramatically to avoid being…
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Grrr
This photo is like a visualization of my feelings this month. Vascilating between Grrr and Meh in equal measure. Work stresses, exhaustion and just some ennui have meant that for this month and most of the previous twelve or so (not sure how many but assume a lot) I’ve been generally ranty or miserable company.…
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Meaningless: A List
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July Is Over
I was dreading July this year. It would mark a year since my step-father’s death. I wasn’t sure how anyone would handle it. I knew there wouldn’t be a big fuss made but sometimes anniversaries can hit harder than you expect. Maybe it was because there always seemed to be some minor issue happening but…
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Sleep Mode
One of the worst things we seem to have embraced in North American culture, is that being busy equates to success. I don’t like being busy, how can we enjoy life if we are working so hard just to be able to afford our lives. That drive to be successful/busy in our lives tends to…
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Knock Knock
This is not the start of a joke. This is the sound that seems to be waking me from sleep, or dreams I guess, in a reoccurring and sporadic manner. From a deep sleep I will suddenly be woken up as if someone has just knocked on something very near to me. There is no…