I’ve always had my weekends to myself, able to spend them quietly doing nothing with no guilt or regret. I work all week, it seems only fair that the weekend is my time to fill as I choose. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Lately that seems not to be the case. I feel like I don’t get to choose what I want to do and if I do nothing I feel like I should have been checking something off a list. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I’m not enjoying this feeling. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
It causes me stress. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I don’t want to be worrying about the million things that have been added to my plate. The million things that make me too exhausted to do the things I have to normally do, let alone doing the extra things. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
In the past I would, begrudgingly, go to the grocery store or the pharmacy to stock up on essentials. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
These days I come home and don’t even have milk.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I realize it sounds selfish. I have only ever had to worry about my self, while others have to worry about more than just themselves all the time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fair, but we all made the decisions that carved the paths of our lives. I made the choices to not have to worry about other people at this time in my life. Now that choice has been taken away from me. Not by others entirely, I also choose to take that burden on, but still it is a lot. Being the responsible one kind of sucks.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And it’s exhausting. And I dislike feeling unorganized in my own life, especially when it took me a long time to find that previous organization and stability.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I guess I just wish I could feel like my weekends were mine again and that I didn’t feel guilty when after a long week I just want to curl up on the couch watching TV, or sleep in and do nothing.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And that maybe I had the energy to remember I should pick up milk.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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