Unproductive. It is a word that can feel like it’s nagging you. It floats around in your head telling you that you haven’t accomplished things, that you should be finding better ways to spend your time, generally making you feel like you are wasting your potential.
Even though we’ve had it reasserted over and over to us that we should be. We can’t be productive all the time. Unproductiveness has its purpose and it is something that from time to time we all need to be.
I spent the end of the year being unproductive. I spent it not doing much of anything actually. Trying to rebuild those reserves of energy I’ll need to get through the next months, to be productive.
Unfortunately, the last couple of years it doesn’t feel as if I can replenish that energy. It feels like I’m expending more than ever before as if my batteries can no longer hold a charge.
Like everything else in life, it is becoming more expensive to be productive. More expensive to buy groceries to feed your body; more expensive to find the energy to fill your mind.
When I’m required to be productive it costs me so much more than I have. Not necessarily because I have more on my plate, though this year that is true, more because any reserves that might have carried over from prior years have long been depleted. That time I’m meant to be resting and unproductive in order to store energy instead is just immediately being spent.
I’m sure we are all feeling similarly these days but if you aren’t – tell me your secret! Or just send some extra energy my way.